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No, it was just a side effect of touching the wall.
at least I think. I don't know for sure, but after the Haibane Renmei
oh, that's the group that helps us, they gave us a place to live and everything.
Anyway, my punishment involved doing some work for the Haibane Renmei for a while. And I think it wasn't that bad.

[...Oh. Huh.]

I don't... think I'll get sick if I do that? I haven't so far.

you mean, if I'm human then I shouldn't have to follow the rules?

oh.

[She appears to have reached an epiphany.]

That hadn't occurred to you until now huh?
That sure makes everything easier right? You don't have to make other people pay for you or anything like that.

I'm actually a Human now!
I
I knew but I didn't

!!!!

You're happy?

I think so
But I guess I feel a little sad too?
And my hands are shaking a little
Ever since I can remember I've been a Haibane

[..................uh oh]

I know it's scary
and it's not what you're used to
but from what you've said Haibane and humans are very much alike it sounds like
and it's only while you're here that you're human right?
I mean it's going to be ok
and it's ok to be sad and confused
and all of that
just remember to take deep calming breaths even if you think you don't need to trust me that's a helpful and good thing

[A couple minutes pass........]

I'm doing the breathing, like you said
I think it's helping
but I had to find a place to sit down
just a little earlier I was so happy
and
You're right it's scary
becoming something different, I mean

[becoming something different- no hold up, this is COMPLETELY different from wendigos and she needs to slow her roll, the small one needs her help]

I know
there are a lot of people here who are like that
Something other than human before now I mean
so maybe you can talk to them if it gets really scary again.
Are you doing a little better?
You'll get through it I know you will

[Thankfully there are no wendigos Rakka knows about here. Nothing to do with monsters and the like... unless you saw it a specific way.]

yes I think I am.
I'm just trying to breath now.
I actually met someone who wasn't human either a while ago
two people
so I guess if I really need to I could ask them

[Maybe Karkat's anger had an effect on her that she didn't realize... God she's still shaking, but thankfully, there's no tears.]

there are some nice ones
or at least some who are nice to talk to.

I didn't mean to set off any bad feelings, Rakka.
I'm sorry.

I guess I'm lucky to meet some of the nice ones then.

I'm sorry too, Ashley.
maybe I wasn't as ready for all of this as I thought I was.
please don't feel bad

What? no it's alright.
You're going through something unexpected and very scary for the first time.
You don't have to apologize for anything like that.

It's unexpected. yeah

can I ask you something, about this?
if you were in my situation, what would you do?

You mean if I was suddenly something other than what I've been and here?
I don't know.
I'd be afraid, I know that for sure.

That's what I was thinking too.
Okay.
Can we talk about something else?

[anything?]

How's your Pokémon doing?
Your Doduo right? Kuki and Feza?

oh, you got it. that's their names.
they're doing alright. I think they're feeling better now that we have some other pokemon on our team.
But they might be a little jealous of Gale, because he can fly.

[Phew. Alright, let's just continue this line of thought.]

Gale? What kind is he? Some other sort of bird? That must be awkward for them, yes.

[Yes, this is a much better direction to take.]

he's a Pidove! it's like a pigeon I guess.
like, how everything here is like an animal but different
uh, I got him as an egg from this guy named Tobias.

Oh I think I saw a few like that! There seem to be a lot of birds here.
I do know Tobias too! He's a sweet boy. I got my Munna from him.

Yes, like that! But... I've never seen a bird that was like Kuki and Feza before.

[Are two heads just a common thing or?]

yes! He's really nice, we even met up for a while after that match-up thing on Valentine's day.

[wait rakka--]

You entered that? Or were you entered by someone else?
It was fun right? You had a good time?

It was my Pokemon. I think he wanted it to be a prank.
but it turned out Tobias's pokemon entered him in it too.

[there's an almost noticeable pause.]

yeah! We had fun!
we walked around Cherrygrove, went to the beach
and even got something to eat later.

[Conveniently leaving out the kiss....]

[Oh, that's good, she'd start making noises over it.]

Well at least that makes it simple to explain. Agatha did the same thing to me and she didn't even write that good an entry! I'm just lucky the guy I was matched with didn't want a proper date.

But you two had fun! That's good.
I ended up getting flown to Goldenrod a few days after to meet.
Was yours more like a hangout or more of a date?

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