hashtagafreakingghost

yeah
i guess thats what im saying
the choices we didnt make too
the ones we made in some timeline we cant even conceive of now
maybe those arent important to the "alpha timeline"
but theyre important to the versions of us that made them
its important that somewhere out there in the infinite complexity of timespace everything that could happen
DOES happen
and that out of all the potential that we carry we made ourselves who we are
its kind of incredible if you think about it that way
that this version of us exists at all in all that everythingness
like
i dunno
a single unique star in a whole sky of stars
this is why i dont talk about the metaphysical junk it gets away from me

no i

i think about that a lot too
though it's probably in a less optimistic way than you're phrasing it
the version of us talking now vs the version of us that made other choices
but it gives a lot of perspective doesn't it?
you could have done this horrible thing and you didn't
you could have done something kind and you didn't
you could have
and you didn't
i am who i am for better or worse and i carry what i've done or didn't do with me

Chris really likes talking about things like this
butterfly effect and all that he would talk my ear off
so i soaked it all up and this is where it lead me

Edited 2016-03-26 22:01 (UTC)

in a way i think im

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ok what im about to say is obviously heavily informed by my previous experience with time travel and alternate timelines
but
i guess thinking about it like thats a way to justify my own existence
and what my presence here in pokeworld accomplishes if accomplishment is even something i want to consider as something existing makes necessary

you're meeting people
and living
that's accomplishing something right?

i don't mean to get preachy at all if it sounds like i am
i can't say i've experienced what you have of course
but that's the way i see it
every single you is important whatever he does
because he's you
so you're also important not just them

yeah
yeah thats what im saying
it
even if eventually i go and everyone who knew me goes and nobody remembers i was here at all
i WAS here
and there doesnt have to be some kind of visible result for that fact to matter

I'll remember

I mean

all this bullshit
about people forgetting
about all of that

we only know from people who've come back
maybe if our time here's really done
forever
we can retain it all

I choose to believe that anyway
the more I think about it
I won't let it slip away
anything that happened here
or anyone I met

[Dave doesn't answer that right away. It's...so much, all of a sudden. It means so much, that she'd say that, even if she doesn't know what he'd be going back to.]

id
really appreciate that
id really like to be remembered by someone like you ashley

I'm just
thank you

I mean
the world's been a piece of shit enough
I like to think that I can at least do something to push back you know?

i can get behind that
thatll show YOU cruel and uncaring universe imma be nice to all these people

gotta try SOMETHING right?
and it's gotten you places hasn't it!
you have yourself a moirail now :)

god ahahaha
christ thats still weird
its so hard to pronounce??? fuck troll words

it's just like a foreign language! you'll get used to it eventually
and if you ever need relationship advice I'm here for you!!
uh
I mean I can try

haha maybe
im sure ill need help at some point if only because i dont know what the fuck im doing with people ever
but apparently this is attractive so??
who the fuck knows

well I've dated like one person ever
and the only one who I've really felt anything for I never had the chance to do anything with yet
so I'm mostly flying blind in that sense!
but I like to think I'm okay with interacting with people

well ive also only dated one person ever and she happened to be a troll so that actually helps in some respects
on the other hand
she had ROUGHLY my degree of emotional competence so that went about as well as youd expect
but karkat has put up with me for three years at this point so mostly im just hoping he knows what hes getting himself into

don't say it like that! you are a perfectly friendly guy Dave and yes okay
you have some
issues
but so does everyone!
hell so does he
he wanted to get into this with you and the romantic in me says you'll make it through

christ
you and karkat should sit down and watch the notebook together or something
i bet youd have a great time

but thanks

the notebook!! you know I made Chris watch that with me once...

you're welcome :)

oh man
what did he think

he cried a little
and then pretended it was allergies :)

ok well if you DO watch it with karkat you need to bring like a boatload of tissues
im not talking a little canoe or even a yacht i mean an OCEAN LINERS worth
he picked one of those movies up once thinking it was a human romcom and i kid you not
total desiccation from the eyes
i thought he was going to morph into a craisin he lost so much body water it was like noahs flood

oh my GOD
adorable
a guy in touch with his feelings or at least in touch to a certain degree is cute
I'll make sure to watch a bunch of romcoms with him
because I do like romcoms don't get me wrong
but it'll be even more entertaining to have two shows going at once

ashley oh my god
hahahaha
definitely let us know when youre in town then because this i have to see

movie night!!!
heck yeah!

ohhhh man
I wish Chris and Josh were here
I can actually say that I wish JOSH was here
a movie night seems weird without him

you know

it might be good if he was
so you could talk things out and stuff
i mean as long as you were safe which is the important part
but as much wrong as hes done it does sound like he was hurting and needed help
and as much as he hurt you it also sounds like you got stuff you need to say
especially if you miss him

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