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hashtagafreakingghost) wrote2025-02-08 05:47 pm
hashtagafreakingghost) wrote2025-02-08 05:47 pm
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Hi! This is Ashley. I, um, can't come to the phone- gear right now? Leave me a message and I'll get back to you ASAP, okay? Bye!
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THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING SOMETHING FOR SOMEONE, SO I DON'T WANT TO FUCK IT UP.
[And he can't exactly ask Dave to look anything over before sending it to Ashley because Dave is a complete asshole about quadrants and ARGH. Okay, no, he'll deal with that shit later.]
OK NEXT QUESTION: IS VIOLENCE STILL A TOPIC YOU'D PREFER TO AVOID? I WASN'T PLANNING ON INCORPORATING THAT MUCH OF IT, BUT IT'S BOUND TO COME UP IN PASSING.
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I don't know.
If it's mandatory then you can just
No guns.
Or saw-blades.
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specific.]
THAT SHOULD BE FINE.
[And. Hell.]
HEY ARE YOU ALRIGHT? I MEAN, IN GENERAL.
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That's a broad question.
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I CAN BACK THE FUCK OFF IF YOU WANT.
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did Dave mention anything or
there was a lot of shit going on before I got here
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YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO INTO DETAIL IF YOU WANT. IT'S JUST, SOMETIMES IT HELPS TO PUT IT OUT THERE, YOU KNOW?
I'VE SEEN A LOT OF FRIENDS GET HURT BECAUSE THEY KEPT THAT SORT OF THING TO THEMSELVES.
SO I MEAN IF YOU'RE COMFORTABLE WITH TALKING ABOUT IT, YOU SHOULD. OR EVEN IF YOU AREN'T, IT COULD HELP MORE THAN YOU THINK IT WILL.
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okay?
I know
Dave told me that
and the cards told me that
and the fact that not talking about anything lead to the biggest fucking disaster of my goddamn life, that is fucking SCREAMING it at me
but I'm a consistent fucking wreck who can't even think about any of it without freaking out
or sleep without a damn pink fluffball giving me BRAIN WIPE
and if I even try everyone's going to
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well fuck]
yeah
i
am really into the backing the fuck off
and forgetting all of this
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FAMILIAR??????]
HEY NO THAT ISN'T WHAT I MEANT.
LOOK I JUST REALLY THINK YOU SHOULD TALK ABOUT IT. DON'T TAKE THIS AS A CRITICISM OR ANYTHING, I UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WOULD WANT TO KEEP IT TO YOURSELF
BUT LETTING IT OUT ISN'T WEAK OF YOU AND PEOPLE SHOULDN'T JUDGE YOU FOR IT, WHATEVER IT IS.
THIS IS JUST CLEARLY WEIGHING ON YOUR MIND AND YOU SEEM LIKE YOU'D BE A LOT HAPPIER IF IT WASN'T?
FUCK, NEVER MIND, YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT A TOTAL STRANGER LECTURING YOU ABOUT THIS SHIT. I BARELY KNOW YOU, I SHOULDN'T STICK MY CARTILAGE NUB WHERE IT ISN'T WANTED.
I'LL STOP.
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Do I even deserve to bhow the fuck can
they really shoul
You're right.
I don't.
Karkat I like you. I like talking to you.
But this isn't something I can talk to anyone about
not with my name attached or anything like that
and the only people who I could aren't here or they're dead
and I know it's only going to get worse but
just let me be stuck between my rock and hard place
at least for a little while
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YEAH, OK.
SO WHAT DO YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT?
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What's Goldenrod like
I was only there for a few days.
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I REALIZE THAT'S NOT WHAT YOU'RE ASKING, LIKE TO YOU IT'S JUST SOME NORMAL HUMAN CITY EXCEPT WITH POKÉTHEMED EVERYTHING
BUT GOLDENROD DOESN'T LOOK LIKE ANYTHING ON ALTERNIA.
EVEN OUR MORE DENSELY POPULATED AREAS DIDN'T FEEL THIS PACKED, AND I'M STILL NOT USED TO THERE BEING ADULTS EVERYWHERE.
I GUESS WATCHING HUMAN MOVIES HELPED, BUT THAT'S DIFFERENT FROM ACTUALLY LIVING IT.
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I'm from a city so it seems like a good place for me actually. Alternia is more rural?
And what was that about adults?
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SOLLUX WAS THE ONLY ONE OF US WHO LIVED IN A COMMUNAL HIVE STEM. HE'D PROBABLY BE MORE OK WITH THIS PLACE.
MOST ADULT TROLLS WERE OFF PLANET CONQUERING THE REST OF THE GALAXY. THERE WERE JADE BLOODS IN THE BROODING CAVERNS BACK HOME, BUT THAT WAS BASICALLY IT.
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Who raised you? If you were so isolated I mean. Was it a communal thing?
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OK THIS IS GOING TO BE ANOTHER CULTURAL DIFFERENCE I'LL HAVE TO EXPLAIN.
TROLLS DON'T RAISE OTHER TROLLS. WE'RE EACH CHOSEN BY ONE OF THE OTHER CREATURES NATIVE TO THE PLANET AND RAISED BY THEM, ASSUMING ONE CHOOSES US AT ALL.
MY CUSTODIAN WAS A GIANT CRAB MONSTER, TEREZI'S WAS A DRAGON, AND KANAYA'S WAS A VIRGIN MOTHER GRUB, TO GIVE YOU SOME IDEA.
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1) Wow?
Like whoa that is so far beyond what I am used to so I need a minute to think about it.
2) What happens if something DOESN'T choose you??
3) Virgin mother grub? There has to be a story behind that.
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2) YOU DIE. WHAT ELSE WOULD HAPPEN?
3) OK YOU REALIZE YOU JUST ASKED ME TO EXPLAIN TROLL REPRODUCTION TO YOU, RIGHT? IF NOT, SURPRISE! YOU JUST ASKED ME TO EXPLAIN TROLL REPRODUCTION TO YOU.
I MEAN. I GUESS I COULD EXPLAIN, BUT IT WOULD BE SORT OF FUCKING AWKWARD.
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And second
I didn't MEAN to ask you about reproduction or anything of the like, I just- when you say Virgin Mother etc for humans it carries intense religious connotations so I was honestly asking if your friend was literally raised by Jesus
or Jesus' mother in this case so
if your friend IS Jesus?
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YEAH YOU PROBABLY SHOULD.
KANAYA IS NOT TROLL JESUS. SORRY TO DISAPPOINT. A VIRGIN MOTHER GRUB IS A MOTHER GRUB WHO HAS DECIDED NOT TO TAKE UP BROODING DUTIES.
I'D RATHER NOT GET INTO TROLL RELIGION. JUST. PLEASE DON'T ASK.
LIKE I'D HONESTLY PREFER TELLING YOU ABOUT OUR REPRODUCTIVE CYCLE, THAT'S HOW MUCH I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT.
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I'm not really religious anyway
The wording just puzzled me
Let's not talk about reproduction either, that's probably awkward.
Your custodians, what about them? You just live in a house (hive?) with them?
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WE DO, YES.
WE CALL THEM HIVES, BUT THEY'RE SIMILAR IN STRUCTURE TO YOUR HUMAN HOUSES.
ONCE WE HAVE A LUSUS, WE TRAVEL WITH THEM TO THE SURFACE AND HAVE OUR HIVES BUILT ACCORDING TO WHATEVER SPECIFICATIONS WE WANT.
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The Lusus (capitals? no?) is your caretaker.
The hive is your house.
You're born underground?
And your Lusus builds your hive for you.
Is that correct?
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