Second 👻 Story [Anonymous Text]

[hashtagafreakingghost]

[For the past few days, all Ashley's done is try to figure out how to get the PokéConnect anonymous. It'd been an idea in the back of her mind for a week or so and then- well, it became an urge and now here she is.]

I need to ask for some advice.
This might also turn out to be a moral question, maybe? I'm playing by ear.

The scenario:
You take part in something careless and thoughtlessly cruel. A tragedy occurs. One that costs lives. You've accidentally hurt a dear, close friend.
That friend then methodically and maliciously plans and carries out revenge that inadvertently puts your life, the lives of your friends, and their own life in danger.
What the hell do you do?
Is it right to be pissed when it's your fault it all happened?
IS it really your fault?
What's worse, a horrible accident or a plot purposely designed to hurt others?
How would you try to move forward?
How would you try to forgive yourself?
Do you deserve to?

Consider this a moral quandary if you will. I'd just really like some advice. Some opinions.

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[quadrangle]

And your friend's revenge escalated the situation?

[This is beginning to sound uncomfortably familiar, except... no, Vriska had always acted deliberately, and Tavros would never seek revenge for himself.]

There was no reason to do that. The prank wasn't the right thing to do, either, but you didn't know it would turn out the way it did and it hurt you, too.
You didn't want to hurt anyone, right?
If you were repentant about it and your friend knew it, there was no reason to keep going.
Revenge always tears people apart, especially among friends. Endangering you all might have been an accident, too, but your friend was fucking stupid to go through with their plan in the first place.

[hashtagafreakingghost]

He was stupid.
He was a goddamn idiot.
But he didn't know. I never made it clear to him.

I don't understand. So many people are letting me off the hook.

[quadrangle]

It doesn't sound like he asked or even brought it up, either. So is it your fault for not telling him because it was uncomfortable or because you thought it didn't need to be said or is it his fault for assuming the worst of you instead of trying to clear it up in a rational discussion between two grown ass adults? And then coming up with his plan and trying to hurt you more anyway?

If you still want to blame yourself, I can't stop you, but just consider that it's stupid to think you were totally responsible when there were so many other mitigating factors.
And if you think you deserve some proportionate punishment for your part in it, your debt looks fully paid from where I'm standing.

[hashtagafreakingghost]

I just wish I could make things right.
For me and for him
I'm so angry and so sorry all at once
And scared
And it feels like I'll never stop feeling like this all the damn time

[She wanted to stay distant and impartial as possible but she can't. Like always, can't stay calm.]

I want to feel like something will make sense again.

[quadrangle]

[............. fuck. Okay, how... wait. Maybe this will work?]

Have you considered writing him a letter?
You wouldn't be able to send it, but maybe writing it will help you to sort out your feelings.
And you could go into more detail than you would be able to anonymously.
There's a chance he could come here, too, right? So you might be able to deliver it after all.

[hashtagafreakingghost]

A letter?
I do better when writing my feelings out anyway so maybe that would work.
I don't know if he'll show up here, though. Do people arrive here if they're dead?

[quadrangle]

Yes.

[hashtagafreakingghost]

If he was here, it would be a second chance for everything then.
I hope







I'm sorry.
that just felt like the right thing to say.

[quadrangle]

Yeah.
I hope you get that chance.